My Goal

Hello :) Ok so my goal for this blog, right now, is to get 25 followers. I know I still need 17 more followers but hey, I think I can do it! With your help I mean. So...does anybody even really read my blog? Anybody at all? One person? If you do can you post a comment below? I need to know if I'm just talking to myself here. Alright well more posts to come. :)

Controlling Parents

Ok, so I'm sure all of you have had an encounter with a set of controlling parents. Whether its yours, your friends, your significant others, whatever. They're everywhere. Some are more controlling than others. I could put them into 3 categories.

1. Parents who control things dealing with THEIR lives.
2. Parents who control things dealing with OTHERS lives i.e. their children.
3. Parents who control things dealing with OTHERS lives and those peoples friends.

Recently I have had an encounter with one of these SUPER controlling parents. So I'm trying to hang out with a friend but their crazy super controlling parent makes all these conditions as to prevent us from even hanging out. Congratulations, you won. We didn't get to hang out. In fact, we can't hang out until about 2 weeks from now which is the same amount of time since the last time I saw him. Has anyone ever dealt with these kinds of people? It makes me mad. Grr... Ok well that was my rant for the day. New one tomorrow! Haha I always have to rant about something.

2 New Followers!

OH MY GOSH! TWO new followers! I am overwhelmed with joy at the moment! Thank you so much! Yeah, I know, I only have 8 followers compared to the hundreds other blogs have, bye hey i'm moving up! Just a short post to tell you guys how happy I am! And if you want, tell your friends! Tell your neighbors! Tell a random hobo! Tell ANYBODY! It would be VERY appreciated. Alright i promise a new and longer post will be made by the end of the day. WHOOOOO! I'm excited, okey dokes bye! :)

NEW PLAYLIST!

Hey everybody! (Wow that sounded a bit cheesy) I added....... A NEW PLAYLIST! As you could probably tell from the title...... Anyway, check it out! And I would suggest listening to the last song first. It's by Charlie McDonnel! I don't know why it says unknown, I guess because it retarded. But if you haven't checked him out yet you can go
here and check him out. He's pretty awesome. Wouldn't it be cool if magically he found my blog and read it?! WHOOOOO! Alright well tell me what you think about the new playlist in the comments: what you like, what you dislike. Let me know people! Thank you!

I'M BACK!!!!!!!! And no one will probably read this....... Great.

Well yeah, I guess you can tell I've been gone a while. But now I'm back! I kinda miss blogging. :( Hopefully this time I'll be able to keep it up! How was everyone's Fourth of July? Good? Amazing? Crappy? Spectacular? Life changing? Alrighty well this is just a short post telling all of you guys that I'm back! So invite your friends to follow me, because I only have 6 followers. Yeah... I know I'm not great but hey I'm just getting started! So click the little follow button on the side there! Pllllleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaasssssssseeeeeeee? Alright I'm done. Bye!

Cinderellie! Cenderella? CINDERELLA!!!!!!!!!

I've never felt more like Cinderella in my whole life. But not like the good part of Cinderella, the bad part. The part where everyone treats her like crap. The part where no one lets her go to the ball, but instead has to do chores. Prince Charming is far away. No one cares about her feelings. But maybe, just like Cinderella I'll be able to go to the ball after all. And when Prince Charming picks me up I'll leave all the bad stuff behind. Forget today's past events and be happy for once. Or maybe they'll find a way to make my day worse. And I won't see Prince Charming. But whatever happens, there's always tomorrow, that can also be ruined as well. I guess we'll have to wait and see....

On that note...

Alright so this week has been an eye opener to me. From the never ending fights and bickering with the parentals from the drama that every teenager goes through. What I've noticed about myself is that I hide behind a mask. Some people might not even notice and some people who I tell everything to know perfectly well. Insecurity is mostly one of them. I went shopping the other day and got into a huge fight with my mom blah blah blah. Boys have it easy. Sheesh growing up as a teenage girl is freakin hard. Especially that stage when you're trying to define yourself through your clothes because everyone you know judges who you are by what you wear. But what if I wanna wear preppy clothes on day, scene clothes the next, and I wear vintage the day after. What does that make me? I once was talking to a friend who thought I was a prep and I told them "Just because I dress like a girl and can't wear skinny jeans and a band t-shirt every day doesn't make me a prep. My lunchroom "cliques" (I hope I spelled that right) are defined by what we wear. If you wear black, skinny jeans, band shirts, and converse every day that puts you with that group of people. If you wear all the clothes from AE, Aero, Hollister, etc. then you're instantly put in with those people. But what happens to the people who dress in skinny jeans, band shirts, converse, but then maybe a nice shirt from Pac Sun that's not a t-shirt and flats. Where does that put me? If I'm gonna be judged by where I fit in by what I wear then really I have no place to go. I'd have to move tables every day just because I wore vintage today. So back to my insecurity point, being a girl and sitting at the table who wear converse, skinny jeans, and band shirts most of the time, I'm pressured to dress just like them. What if I don't want to? It's also hard because I have to OK everything with my mom and if she doesn't like it I can't get it which is another venting session in itself. So sometimes I have to dress in somewhat girly stuff. I guess I won't be able to get away from it until I'm out of high school. Until then I'll be trying to please all my peers and be insecure of what I wear. But somedays I just don't give crap. And somedays has turned to most days, I've gotten over the thought of everyone judging me. Go ahead and judge me. It's just clothes. And if I don't look like everyone else in the whole freakin world I really don't care. Because i don't want to I wanna be ME. Alright so my venting session is over. Have a good rest of spring break for those who read my blog. Which is probably like 1 person maybe. Goodbye! :]